Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
'Cause right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
'Cause you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
It's ridiculous

It's been months

And for some reason I just
Can't get over us
And I'm stronger than this
Ain't no faith in him
Always walkin' 'round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin' over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked April 30th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Leave me alone
Stupid love songs
Don't make me think about his smile
[[Or having my first child]]
Let it go
I'm turning off the radio

'Cause I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing he was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Yes, I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing he was still here
Said I'm so done with love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Why can't I turn off the radio?

Layers

Layer.one
Name: cristin
Birthdate: 12 / 7 / 88
Birthplace: wv
Current location: ransom, ky
Eyes: greenishbluishgreyish
Hair: brown
Height: 5'6
Righty or Lefty: righty
Zodiac Sign: sag.

Layer.two
Your heritage: uhm,.german.indian. and stuff.
Your weakness: self tanner.
Your shoes you wore today: i ran around bare feet all day today.
Your fears: heights [i'm working on it].. and enclosed small spaces.
Your perfect pizza: cheeeeeeeeeeeeese. and lots of it.
Goal you'd like to achieve: uhm. getting in bed early so i can wake up earlier to go to chade's. sorry babe., not gonna happen. lol.

Layer.three
Your thoughts first waking up: chade.
Your best physical feature: uhm. i'm skinny. and i have abs. sort of.
Your bedtime: uh. what?
Your most missed memory: when i felt pretty.

Layer.four
Pepsi or Coke: coke
McDonald's or Burger King: i freaking hate burger king.. because every single time i go to logan., chade makes me eat there.. and they either don't put enough cheese on my order.. or they don't put any cheese on it at all. and i love cheese. fuck burger king.
Single or group dates: single
Adidas or Nike: nike
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton ice tea
Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or coffee: coffee

Layer.five
Smoke: no
Cuss: shit., no.
Sing: constantly.
Take showers daily: like. 3 times daily. i love waters.
Have a crush: yessssssss. on my chadey.<3
Think you've been in love: horribly enough., yes.
Want to go college: sh. no.
Want to get married: yes.
Believe in yourself: not really. i try.
Get motion sickness: not that i know of..
Think you're attractive: ugh. no. no. no. no.
Think you're a health freak: psh.
Get along with your parents: well enough.
Like thunderstorms: yes.
Play an instrument: no.

Layer.six - in the past month
Gone to the mall: yes
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: hehe. i need to get back on that.
Eaten sushi: nope.
Been on stage: no.
Gone skating: no.
Made homemade cookies: no.
Gone skinny dipping: no.
Dyed your hair: no.
Stolen anything: no.

Layer.seven - ever..
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: no.
Been called a tease: yes.
Got beaten up: yes. james rich., you little bastard.

Layer.eight
Age you hoped to be married: 19 or 20- only if i'm still with chade.
Number and name of children: at least 2. i love izabella., and brenden.
Dream wedding: white & red.. strangely enough.. that's what sara put. haha.
How do you want to die: i'd rather not.
Where do you want to attend college: nowhere.
Dream job: sitting at home on my butt all day eating doritos.
Country you want to visit: any country in europe. esp. germany. i miss my mumu. <3

Layer.nine - In a guy/girl...
Best eye color: brown.
Best hair color: black.
Short or long hair: medium/long.
Height: 5'10
Best weight: 145ish
Best clothing: cutishpreppish
Best first date location: movies. then out to eat. then make out for 3 hours in his truck.
Best first kiss location: beside the coffee corner. <33

haha. i love chade. ^^^^^^ <33333333333

Layer.ten
Number of drugs taken illegally: uhm.
Number of people I could trust with my life: mom., dad., sis., joe., chade., sara., rissa., brit jr... uhm.. and probably james.
Number of CDs that I own: alot.
Number of piercings: 4.
Number of tattoos: 0.
Number of times my name's been in the news: uh. never? 
Number of scars on my body: please don't make me count.
Number of things in my past that I regret: one.

alot of things have gone bad lately.. sort of. but for every bad thing -- something like., ten times better has happened to make up for it.

like. -- i quit my job because my exboss it a total bi-yotch.

i was kind of sad.. but i'm not anymore.. because now..

- my parents give me money., and i don't have to work for it.

- i can see chade every single day.

- i don't have to miss soccer practice., at all..

- i have all of my weekends free.

- i get to go to football games when football season starts.

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&&& tonight me and chade got in a kind of bad arguement because some girl came up to him and was all.. '' chaaaaaaaaadeee...  '' oh baybee., oh baybee.. like 2 seconds after i walked away from him.. and i kind of flipped out a little.. then i realized that she was like.. seriously drunk.. and that chade told her to get the heck away from him.. and i felt so bad for being so stupid to think that chade would ever do anything at all to hurt me.

but the good side to that is - i have the most amazing boyfriend in the entire world.. and i got the ' you have to trust me, baby.. ' speech.. and a great big hug and kiss.. and long long cuddle in his comfy bed when we got home. he takes such good care of me.. and he looks past the times that i make stupid mistakes or misjudgments. i love him so much., and i would honestly do anything in this world for him.

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today was a long day. i woke up late this morning.. chade went to ashland to get his street bike.. and i had to wait for forever to leave to go to his house. he lives like so far away and i hate the drive. he called me when he was like an hour or so from his house.. and i left like 45 minutes later to be sure that he was home when i got there. and i drove all the way down there.. and banged on the door for like an hour and no one answered.. but all the cars were home.. and i had to pee like.. really bad.. so i left and drove to dairy queen.. and then came back to his house and he told me that he tried to flag me down.. and that he was only at eddie's. so i drove like 30 minutes for no reason. haha.

his bike is like. so so pretty. i love it. aaaannddd.. he looks way hot on it<3 hehe.

we hung out at his house until 6 or so and then me and him and britt and one of his other friends and bruce went down to the races and stayed until like 10.

i had a great time. chade was with his friends for the most part.. but i hung out with britt all night., so it was okay. i love her ! <33 she's like., the best ever. we took all kinds of cute pictures. she's like., starting to be one of my best friends.

when we left., we took one of chade's friends home because i think he had been drinking.. and then i spent a little alone time with chade.. and then i got home at like. 12 something. not too late. acutally kind of early. i was proud. haha.

i think tomorrow either chade is coming over here all day., or i'm going back over there and me and britt are gonna go fourwheeler riding with chade and a bunch of his friends.

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tuesday is our anniversary. =*) awh., yay. i think i want to buy him a present. lol. <3 i love him so much. i hope we last for months and months and months and forever.

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i haven't been able to get online much in forever. i never ever ever have time to do anything any more. busy busy busy.

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&& i am sooooooooooooo happy. this is honestly the happiest that i have ever been in my life. i have the best boyfriend in the entire world. he is so amazingly great to me.. and he is absolutely the most gorgeous guy that i've ever seen. it's one of those things where i wake up every morning and ask myself what on earth i did for God to bless me with someone so perfect. we have so much fun together.. and he does everything in the world for me. 

he's just so good to me. <33 i don't deserve him.

this weekend was perfect [ just like every other second i spend with him ]. friday, he picked me up from work.. and he took me out to eat.. then.. saturday morning he called and woke me up really early.. told me to get ready.. and then he drove 45 minutes just to pick me up and take me back to his house for a whole day. i met his family. they are the best ever. i love his mom and his sister brittany. she's my new bestest friend. =*) we went to eddie's.. and we layed in his bed [among other things] and watched tv together. he took me out on bruce's fourwheeler.. aaaaaannnnndddd... we played around and just spent time together. that night he took me to logan and we watched ' just my luck '. it was a really good movie. then we went to burger king.. and then we went to our spot for a few hours.. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnddddd then he drove me all the way back over here. then.. yesterday he picked me up from work.. and we went and bought my mom a mother's day present and we rented a movie and we came back to my house and ate and watched wedding crashers and we wresteled in my floor for like ever., and he went home kind of late. i'm not sure what we're doing this week.. but i know that sunday., he's taking me a brittany shopping in h-ton. <3 yay.

anyways. i just have an amazing feeling that everything is going to stay perfect like this for a long time.. i don't ever have to worry about anything ever again as long as i have chade. i know he feels the same way.. and i'm soooooooooo happy. i hope we are together forever and ever. <333333

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i hoped you choked--
&& crashed your car--
hey, tear catcher - that's all that you are
&& ever were
--from the start..

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oh., baybee..

i am so completely happy at this point.. you couldn't even begin to imagine.

i seriously have the best boyfriend in the entire world. ever.

since the day we started going out.. i've spent every second that i possibly can with him.. and he's taken such good care of me already. && that's all that i've needed for the longest time. he really is my best everything. <33 we have so much fun together.. and he is sooooooo sweet. last night., we were out looking at the stars.. and he was being all silly making me laugh., like he always does.. and he said., ' if every word i said made you smile., i would talk forever '. -- he takes me out with his friends., and he tells everyone that i'm his girl. =*) i've never had anything like this before. i've needed to feel this way for forever. && now that i do.. i never ever want to stop. he does everything for me., and i don't even have to ask. i know that most girls get all mad when their boyfriends tell them not to do certain things., but when chade does.. it just makes me feel like he cares about me. like.. - he won't let me cuss anymore. =*) hehe.. aaaaandddd - i'm not allowed to wear shirts that you can see cleavage.. UNLESS chade is with me. lol. he's the greatest. he talks about how he wants to spend every second with me.. and how this summer i can go to his house and swim with his sister while he's at work... =*).. i dunno.. it's just little stuff.. everything he says or does., just makes me feel wanted.

i love it.

<3333333

( not to mention., everyone is like., hey cristin.. your boyfriend looks like pete ! )

can you say., gorgeous? uuuhhh hhhuuuhhh. <3

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don't laugh at my ugly picture. it's the only one i gots of us so far. lol. <3

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